Ughhhhhhhhh.. rasanya hari ini malesss banget kerja. Buka coding litany udah ngga ada seleraaaa sama sekali. Ugh ugh ugh, harus bisa melawan kemalasan tak beralasan ini (kesannya kl males ada alas an boleh gitu?). Mungkin dengan bloggin dulu? Hehehe.
Last nite gw nonton a reality show (suka bgt de reality show), judulnya 30 days. This couple (not married yet), were apparently quiet famous in the movie industry. Not sure who were they tho. But for sure, they live splendidly rich. In this show, they take the challenge of being 'normal' as people who work in minimum wage for 30 days. They were given $300 as a start, and they had to move to another city to start their new ‘exciting’ life.
Dengan terngantuk2 I was insisted to watch it till it finished. Maan (man lagi deh keluar), sometimes we see the poor and yes we know, they do need help (tho sometimes we don’t see their needs too). But have we ever really UNDERTSTAND (back to my previous topic), and place ourself in their shoes. Life is not only very hard, but it seems like an impossible thing for them.
This couple, he had to work 3 full time jobs (18 hours outside home), and she also had a full time job as a dish washers, and walked everyday to her workplace just for the sake of saving $2.50 everyday. These are some fact that we don't realize about the poor.
1. What ever they earn that day, is what ever they have just to feed their basic need (food, and day rent – which includes water, gas, electricity). Savings in the bank is like unthinkable!!!
2. By having crazy work hours, it's just so hard to keep and maintain relationships. You don't have time for each other, you don't have enough time just to talk and chat, you don't have time (and money) to spend together. Forget about birthday surprises and candle light dinner. It's easy to work out relationship in your best circumstances, and you think you have the strongest relationship and love, huh? Try being in their position and you will know how strong your relationship is.
3. Kids = impossible to feed, to keep, to maintain.
4. Sick means: you loose a day job, a day wage, a day food... and you'll go minus for your doctor and medication cost. Waktu di acara itu, the girl had bleeder infection and she had to go to the emergency. It cost them $300 just to get into the emergency. Bayangin nggak sihhhhhhhhhhhh?!?! (Itu aja, they can go because they're only in 30 days contract that they can pay the owing later on). The poor, they don't have much choice when they're sick, when they're in desperate needs, while we, have lotsss and lootsss of choices in things that we don't need. I felt so selfish.
With these 3 facts (out of many others), do we now realize, why do they steal, why do they choose to be criminals? And yet, we thoughtlessly think that they have disturbed our secure living. How selfish are we. They are so much less than enough for everyday food, they starve, they are sick sometimes too, they don’t have time just to educate their children, setting rules, run the house. These are the basic things in life that we don’t see it as our needs because we’re so blindly abundant.
I know it's not our fault to be as we are right now. But, somehow I do feel guilty. I don't know why do I feel it exactly. I just think that sometimes being myself is such a selfish thing. I feel guilty for being selfish, I feel guilty for not doing enough, while I can. I feel guilty for complaining for so many things over my life. I feel guilty for shouting at people in the street that I think they are so much annoying.
I feel selfish for thanking God by saying "thank You that I'm so blessed".
Ouh, one more thing.. it's related to my previous post 'Can you feel His all the time goodness'. It’s easy to thank God and praise Him when as we are right now. But can we still thank God and feel His goodness if we're in their position??? I feel so shallow now.