The seasons have been cold these days and I realized that I've been thinking too much lately. Of unthinkable things. I needed a lift, a big lift, I've always known where to find it but it seems like I don't know anymore how to find it. Though I've always managed to find comfort one moment at a time just. But I am not satisfied. I want two comforts at one time so I can save it up for later despair. I want to know what's happening in tomorrows so I won't mistake. After all most mistakes are unchangeable - yet it changes our path forever.
Here is what I need to keep in mind.
I no longer have yesterday. It slipped away as I slept. It is gone. I can't change, alter, or improve it. Hourglass sand won't flow upward. The second hand of the clock does not tick backward. The monthly calendar reads left to right, not right to left. I no longer have yesterday.
Yet I do not have tomorrow. Unless I can accelerate the orbit of the earth or convince the sun to rise twice before it sets once, I can't live tomorrow today. I can't have tomorrow's problem, celebrate yet to know tomorrow's achievement or resolve tomorrow riddles.
No wonder we weary so.
No wonder I weary.
We tend to sabotage our day, wiring it for disaster instead of giving it a good chance, lugging along yesterday's troubles, downloading tomorrow's struggles. Remorse over the past, anxiety over the future. Instead of giving the day, the fullest chance it can bring.
An hour is too short, a year is too long. Days are bite-sized portions of life, the God designed segments of life management. Two dozen flips of the hourglass. Both sunrise and sunset. A brand-spanking-new, unsoiled, untouched, unchartered and unused day! A gift of 24 hours un-lived, unexplored hours.
Hey, maybe a comfort at a time is all I need. As I pray for 'give us this day our daily bread', it comforts me how His provision is fulfilled as the day comes - yet tomorrows are in His hands. Today. I have only today. This is the day that The Lord has made. Live in it. I must be present to win. Don't heavy today with yesterday's regrets or acidifies it with tomorrow troubles.
Carpe Diem. The day has been given to you, my dears:)