it's never worth it....
but I did it anyway.
i have always knew it....
tho there this super tiny voice inside me scarily hoping that it would turn up differently just this time
i knew it (everytime)
yet i still do it..
this forbidden disappointment
can only go one direction
rotting myself wondering.. is it my fault?
anyway when one finger points out, the rest point us back, huh?
i'll keep on trying...
because I love you, dear.