I'm gonna tell lots about my dad today. It's been forever since I was born that I feel I'm so much blessed to have him as my dad. In particular if I hear the stories of many 'bad dads'. Not because I'm pompous, but it's not hard to taste and see that God is very good to me indeed.
He's always perfect in my eyes - no matter what. When I was a little girl and I didn't get to know so much about God, my dad was my God. He was the bravest, the smartest, the wisest, among all the people in the world. I had no hero, not any other cartoon/ idol heroes like other kids, cause my dad is the only hero. My dad can do anything.
My dad was the bravest and the strongest. He always has taught me to not to be such a chicken even though I was a girl (and small =p), not a boy. And whenever I got to try anything new (and scary), he was always there right beside me and I knew, there was nothing to be scared of, and I can do almost anything with him. He's always been an adventurer - that has made me one too.
My dad was the smartest. I used to be so proud to tell my friends how he was always being the top in his school. Even when he was looking for Uni – the Uni was the one gace the offer first to my dad. When he was looking for a job – the owner of the company went to his rented place in Jakarta (it was his first house), and offered the job. I'm still so much amazed to that. My dad was the most brilliant – there was no question that he couldn;t answer. From PMP, IPA, IPS, to math, he was mastered at them all even more than my teachers were. Despite of knowing everything, he didn't teach me easy ways. He always put me to the learner seat, not the donkey seat – the one who got told anything without efforts.
Other than knowing anything, my dad could fix everything, and that even made him just the most intelligent man on earth. From the simplest thing to the most complicated ones. From putting back my halved doll from its head (scary banget ga sih gw maennya.. lol), to fixing my mom's sewing machine. He could make any unusable things to be usable again. From old, bad looking things, into new.
My dad was the wisest and the kindest. Even though he's not very much into God and Christianity, must tell you that I'm always stunned by all his teachings to myself and my sis. He's even better than myself who goes to church regularly. One of the thing that always makes me so proud of him, dad has taught me not to cheat – no matter how small is it. Even riding buses without a student card and wish to pay student rate (a very tiny sin =p) - not allowed. And in this world where little cheatings (and lies) have become usual, there's one person I know who still holds the true meaning of honesty - and that's my dad.
My dad plays with me, he even created our own games that no one knew. My dad got excited about my fashion. My dad always introduces me to his friends. My dad teaches me English songs before I sleep instead of reading me stories. My dad translated an English movie from the start till the end when I didn't understand English and couldn't read the translation.
So, imagine such a little girl like me, seeing a person, a dad like him. Mention anything, I mean anything; he knew everything and he could do anything. I heard the story about Soeharto the president, how he was only a poor farmer kid who was so smart that he could made it as a president, straight away I asked my mom & dad, why can't my dad become the president? I was sure that he's more in everything than Soeharto. Hahaha.
I as so proud being his little girl, I would be so pleased if people told me that I looked like him. Even when went around his office building and people recognized me as Bp. Yanto's daughter, that made me so so proud - yeah!!. If you know me, I think my hobbies and charateristics are so much like him.
And as a grown up girl now, and knowing God, I can't really think that he's a God anymore=p. But, I still think that he's perfect - at least for me and in my eyes. He's still the smartest, the wisest and the bravest. But one thing that I see differently now as I grow more mature, I see such a very wise man still. It's a different wise from when I was little, the way he has raised me up since I was little.
My dad always supports me in whatever I do and never gives up on me. You see, sometime I feel ashamed that I'm not as great as him - while I always want to make him proud of me. But no matter what, he always shows that he's never feel ashamed of me, no matter how bad I am. Even though he has always been the greatest in his life – and I'm not, he always shows that I'm the greatest in his eyes. My dad always teach me that it's not the matter of always being able to - but it's the matter of trying and believe in yourself and God. (He do talks about God). As because I love my dad soooooo much, I always try to make my dad proud of me. I always try to be my best so Dad is happy. Sometimes I do fail though, but dad told me, that sometimes it's okay to not being able - we're human anyway. As long as I have put my 101% efforts, then don't regret the whatever results I get. He teaches me to always doing my best even though at the end I'm not always being the best, then I won't regret anything. He said that all things happen for reasons. Sometimes there are people who work hard but they still fail and vice versa, there are people who do things easily and get things easily. There are things that we can't control, so leave it then. What matters are things that we can do but we don't do it.
My dad never steers my life. Of course when I was little I got told things so much. But growing up, he teaches me to be brave enough making my own decisions. He once mentioned to me that he's there not to drive my life, but to guide me. He's always gonna be there for me when I need his ideas and advices, and when I'm in junctions, but I need to learn making my own decision because he's not gonna be on earth forever. You know what's so great about it? We know that parents love their kids so much that you can't really measure their love. But I think my dad's love is the kind of love that not every parent has. He thinks only for my best - not his. Can you imagine the feeling of saying, "If I'm not here on earth anymore". Some parents, they steer their kids life (expecting for the best of course), but don't think long enough what about if they are not on earth anymore? Until this day, my dad is my personal adviser in making lots and lost - most of my life deicisions. I always ask him what to do, how to decide, and which is better from the other ones. And of course, his ideas, opinions and directions are always right at the end. Thank God that I'm sure I won't loose my way as long as my dad is with me.
My dad hardly says no to me. It only started happens when I was a little grown up though - of course. Everything that I asked for, he rarely says no. This way actually makes me hesitate to ask things from him and teaches me to think myself whether I should have it/ buy it.
Even though I don't tell him my personal things, but I always feel that he's so closed to me. There are times when I feel so so despair, strangely my dad can call me just to talk. I feel like I have a very strong bond with him. I'm glad that he's an angel that God sends me everytime I'm so much in gloom.
As I said earlier, I might not stop talking about my dad. I'll never can finish describing him from my point of view. I just want people to know about my dad - if possible, the whole world. Lol. Maybe I'm still like the same little girl who still and always be proud of my dad.
Thank you dad, thank you God.
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