In Lord of the Rings
You're my Legolas.. hm, and my Sam too^^

In Spiderman 3
You're my Tobey

In 40days 40nights
You're my Josh Harnett

In Kingkong
You're my KINGKONG too!!^_^

Love doesn't make the world go round, love is what makes the ride worthwhile." - Elizabeth Barrett

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I remember my mother's prayers and they have always followed me. They have clung to me all my life - Abraham Lincoln

I heard her prayers
To the One above
Everything that she could ask for.. dreams for
All of herself, faith, time, love and life
All of her
For me

Her two hands reach as far as its length and strength
But every mothers' silent wishes
Deep as an ocean
Uncomprehend by any child's mind
Holds my life and keeps me safe
In her prayers..

For all the moms in the world.. especially my lovey dovey mom! Luv luv luv luv ya.

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A dollar is just a dollar for us. For some, it's worth of a 30 mins of parking. It's meant to be for tips to others.. or spares they randomly find in their pocket to be given to beggers. It doesn't buy you a cup of coffee here in Australia. It doesn't mean anything for some.

Today I went for the Spiderman 3. Superb Superb Superb. A must watch I must say. He said everyone always has a choice. Mostly to do good or bad.. to be a good person or the other way around. I do agree.

It seems like alot of money. An on going $480 per year. But it's actually only about a dollar per day. It's not much... little I can do.. I know. But I said it can a lot more to others in need than to myself. I knew it in my heart but wasn't sure how.. how to explain.

One of Spiderman's enemy was made of sands. I'd call him the Sand Man. He chose to steal and kill the Spiderman's uncle. That made Spiderman wanted to take revenge. Blood with blood some people say. What Spiderman didn't know until the very end was, the Sand Man had to do it because he needed lots of money for his dying daughter. For the love of a father to his own daughter. That can't justify of what he did I know. He said he didn't have choice. I say he had little choices. A lot less choices than some others. It reminded me of my servant's son who died because of simple illness, just because they didn't have any choice for a medication/ a help and they only choice they had was to let him go.

A dollar is just a dollar in amount. It is. But now I know, my one dollar per day, that little-almost-worth-of-nothing gold coin worths more than just an amount. To them it means more choices in tight life. One Australian dollar in Indonesia gives them choices to have meals. It gives them choices not to steal and harm others. It gives them choices to hope for the better because people do care. One dollar means more than just an amount.. more than just money. It depends how we see it and how we use it.

In tears Spiderman saw the bigger picture. A picture that shows him beyond of what he tought, beyond his anger of his killed uncle. A skecth of desperation and love. That opened up his heart to understand more, be healed from anger and to forgive.

I was in tears to know that my little help does great things for those who are in need. My heart saw it but now my eyes see it. Whereever you are, I do care.. I hope with more choices you have in your hand, you choose the better path in life.

Thank you for revealing this to me.

Something similar I posted before here.

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Live life with full of passion
Not just because I have to live
Live with love, faith and courage
With great purposes and dreams
Not just whatever

Who I was does not have to determine who I am and who I can be
I won't allow my circumstances to dictate my life
But instead, I will get the grip of them only for positive things in life

I wanna live a lover's life

Ps. I'm a Sunday's girl. This is what happen everytime I meet my Father and Lover of my soul +)

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It's beating
I can hear it
A life is there
again...

"The heart beats happiest when it beats for others"

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I read this devotion ages ago.. and it's been seating in my box for ages coz I couldnt finish translating it for ages. Blah! What I'm trying to say is.. I had been wanting to share this like forever!

You heard about love is blind.. How abt blind is love?

“Thank You God!” That would be my first words every morning when I wake up. Everytime I open my eyes, I can see how great God’s creations are; the green fields, colourful flowers, and the blue sky. It’s such the greatest blessing when we are able to see. Can you imagine what if we were blind? Our life is in the continuos darkness. Just imagine how dreadful we feel if its even only an hour with no power at home!

There was once a student who wanted to experience how would it feel to be blind? What do they have to go through? To experience it, he closed his eyes for three months. The first thing that he felt was he lost his confident. Didn’t even able to pick his clothes, couldn’t even imagine how he would walk out of the door. He felt much suffer those people who can’t see have to go through. At the end of the experiment, he opened his eyes and the first thing that he said was, “Thank You God for blessing me with eyes so that I can see Your great creations.”

On the other hand, he also learnt not to judge the book by its cover. Are clothing brands like Aigner, Boss, CD important? Are great cars like BMW, Mercy essential? Is cosmetic necessary? Is it basic to judge a person from their skin colour? Is it matter to value a person from their face, their small eyes, blue eyes, or long hair? Is beautiful face vital? Are great house and garden matter?

For the blinds, these things do not excite them, they don’t need all these. They won’t be tempted by beautiful things, they aren’t interested in great decorations or how the food looks like, but what is most important is their taste. They are not interest and do not need the outside looks indeed! That is why I am (the write) sure our life will be less costly if starting from tomorrow we shop and buy things not based on their packing, or their covers. I am also sure that we will make more friends just if we don’t see a person just from their exterior!

Not all blind people want to have their sight back. A song writer of “Blessed Assurance”, Fanny Crosby who was blind since she was 8, wrote this song gladly when all other girls were playing outside:

Oh, what a happy soul am I! Although I cannot see, I am resolved that in this world contented I shall be. How many blessings I enjoy that other people don’t. To weep and sigh because I`m blind, I cannot--and I won't!

Ps. Stop blaming love for being blind ^_^

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In one of my most hectic week..

I love my dad
I love my mom
I love my sister
I love my family.. just the way they are=)

Phil1:3 I thank my God for you whenever I think of you

*Back to work now.. due date is in less than 2 hours.. hiyaaach!*

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I had an interesting short chat with a friend back from my undergrad. Those 'catching-up' questions like how are you, how's life and how this and that started this interesting short conversation. Then he started talking about his love life.. it goes something like this:

Him: we got lots of probs lately
Me: well, problems are part of life
Him: yea, I mean we know we love each other but I think love is not enough
Me: If love's not enuf, what else do u need?
Him: communication, brain and money
Me: are you setting up a business?!

Dun't u think nowadays everything including love is such a commercial thing too huh? Wat a pitty...

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A short message sent with this by a friend: "Moga2 gak pada begini yah.."

Before Sleep
6 weeks: selamat bobo sayang, mimpi indah ya, mmmuach.
good night honey, sweet dreams, mmuach.
6 months: tolong matiin lampunya, silau nih.
can u turn off the light? it's too bright
6 years : besok kita beli selimut 1 lagi ya biar ngga rebutan gini.
let's buy another blanket so we won't fight for it

Using Toilet
6 weeks : ngga apa2, kamu duluan deh, aku ngga buru2 koq.
It's okay, you go first, I'm no hurry
6 months: masih lama ngga nih?
are you gonna be any longer?
6 years : brug! brug! brug! (suara pintu digedor),kalo mau tapa di gunung kawi sono!
bang, bang, bang! go meditate in some other places, will you?!

Driving Lesson
6 weeks : hati2 say, injek kopling dulu baru masukin perseneling ya
Honey, becareful..
6 months: pelan2 dong lepas koplingnya.
Slowdown, will you?
6 years : pantesan sering ke bengkel, masukin persenelingnya aja kayak gini, biasa bawa angkot yach!
Were you a truck driver before?

Replying SMS
6 weeks: iya sayang, bentar lagi nyampe rumah koq,aku beli martabak kesukaanmu dulu ya
Kay honey, I'll be home shortly. I'm going to buy your favourite food beforehand, kay.
6 months: mct bgt di jln nih
trffc jam
6 years : bawel, bentar lagi juga nyampe kok.
such a big mouth, I'll be home shortly

Dating
6 weeks : I love U, I love U, I love U.
6 months : Tentu saja aku mencintaimu.
Of course I love you
6 years : Iyalah gw mencintai lu, kalo ngga.. ga bakal kawin ama lu..
If I didnt love you in the first place, I wouldnt merry you...

From Office
6 weeks : Sayang, aku pulang nich (muach).
Honey, I'm home (muach)
6 months : aku pulang!!!
I'm home!!!
6 years : Ibu lu masak apa hari ini??
What did you cook today??

Birthday Present
6 weeks : Sayangku, kuharap kau menyukai cincin yang kubeli
Honey, I hope you like this ring
6 months : Aku membeli lukisan, nampaknya cocok dengan suasana ruang tengah
I bought a picture, it looks good in the lounge room
6 years : Nih duitnya, loe beli sendiri deh yang loe mau
Give you the money, you go ahead by whatever you want.

Phone
6 weeks : Baby, ada yang pengen bicara ama kamu di telpon
Babe, someone's one the phone for you
6 months : Eh...ini buat kamu nih...
It's for you...
6 years : WOOIII TELPON BUNYI TUUUHHH....
Heyyyyyyy the phone's ringingg!!

Food
6 weeks : Wah, tak kusangka rasa makanan ini begitu lezaattt...!!!
Wow, this is good
6 months : Kita makan apa malam ini??
What are we eating today?
6 years : HAH? MAKANAN INI LAGI?
What? This again?

Forgiving
6 weeks : Sayangku cintaku, aku mengerti... aku maafin kamu kok...
Darling, I understand, I forgive you
6 months : Awas!! jangan di ulang lagi yach..
Dont ever do it again
6 years : Kenapa sich lu ga pernah dengerin kata2 gw!!!!
Why don't you ever wanna listen to me??!

New Clothes
6 weeks : Duhai kasihku, kamu seperti bidadari dengan pakaian itu
You look good in that top
6 months : Lho, kamu beli baju baru lagi?
You bought another new top?
6 years : BELI BAJU ITU HABIS BERAPA??
How much did you spend for that top???

Holiday
6 weeks : Kalo kita liburan ke Vienna atau keliling eropa pake kapal pesiar gimana??
How about us going to Vienna or around Europe on the cruise?
6 months : Emangnya kenapa kalo liburan ke Istanbul pake pesawat carteran??
What's wrong with going to Istanbul by chopper?
6 years : Jalan2? emangnya kenapa kalo dirumah aja???
Holiday? What's wrong with being at home?

TV
6 weeks : Sayang, mau nonton apa malam ini?
Darling, what do you want to watch tonight?
6 months : Gw lebih suka filem ini.
I like this movie better
6 years : Gw mo nonton bola, kalo ga mau ikutan, tidur duluan aja, gw bisa nonton sendiri kok...
I wanna watch soccer. If you dont wanna watch it you can go to sleep earlier and I will watch it by myself

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I don't know if I've ever share a post about my mom. So here we go, on this mother's day, I want to write something so that the whole world will know about my mom.

My mom as other moms, takes care of me, but may not like others mom, takes care of me like a priceless jewel like no one in this world. Worries about the smallest things in my life, sometimes annoy me, but I know that the love she she has for me just takes every little part of what she has and what she is. She'd put up any fight to protect me from the world. Jadi inget when I was in kindergaten, no guys was brave enough to bully me coz they know if they do something bad to me.. my mom will not hesitate to kick their ass! Hahaha. So I always feel secure coz I have my mom.

My mom is a real survivor. She always "check-out" the ways before I go - whether it's safe. She'd prepare the way and make the way so much easier for me. Just recently before I went to Sydney, she has conquered Sydney by herself - for me. She knows UNSW area really well; what bus to catch, where things are, which bustop is darker at nights, bought bus tickets for me.. all sort of things! Hix..

She duzn't reward herself with latest fashions, expensive jewelries, vogue hair do, or even great make-ups, coz she rather spends her wealth, her time and her pleassures for the family, for me. Never stops praying for my brightest future and wishing for my endless happiness. Sometimes when I sleep I accidentally can hear she prays for me - for lots of things.. hehe. When I'm in my exam times, she'd do everything for me - not allowing me to do anything. She'd go praying for me loudly - with her two hands on top of my head quickly just before I leave home. Trus semangat2in .. "Ci, sukses ya.. 10 yaa.. God bless you"... trus yah pasti ada embel2.. "ati2 nyebrang, awas dompet ilang, jng pulang malem2.." hehehe..

She may be limited in many ways, yet her love for me has no limit. No matter how people think and see her, she's always the biggest part of my life - who makes me as what I am today. She might not be perfect as a mom, but I believe God doesn't make mistakes and He plans perfectly - and so how she is to me, just perfect.

My only one best-est mom in the world.. sorry for many things and I love you always. Miss you here - far apart from Sydney. Thank you God.

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I found this rather funny yet interesting fact about Chinese student go abroad for study, while I'm researching for my paper...

"Living abroad is no easy matter, and many people experience language and cultural barriers, financial pressure and loneliness. More than 20% of the respondents said they have stayed single during their time abroad, and 60% are willing to endure the pain of separation from their partners for the duration of their studies. Only 16% have found other partners while away from home. Nearly 50% of respondents said that living abroad jeopardizes relationships formed in China. They hold that spending years in a foreign country can change a person's outlook on life, and that even if a couple stays together, things are never quite the same when they are reunited. Some, however, believe that true love can defeat any challenge."

Wohooo.. go China.. go China

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It's my dad's birthday today. Happy birthday, dad!

I'm gonna tell lots about my dad today. It's been forever since I was born that I feel I'm so much blessed to have him as my dad. In particular if I hear the stories of many 'bad dads'. Not because I'm pompous, but it's not hard to taste and see that God is very good to me indeed.

He's always perfect in my eyes - no matter what. When I was a little girl and I didn't get to know so much about God, my dad was my God. He was the bravest, the smartest, the wisest, among all the people in the world. I had no hero, not any other cartoon/ idol heroes like other kids, cause my dad is the only hero. My dad can do anything.

My dad was the bravest and the strongest. He always has taught me to not to be such a chicken even though I was a girl (and small =p), not a boy. And whenever I got to try anything new (and scary), he was always there right beside me and I knew, there was nothing to be scared of, and I can do almost anything with him. He's always been an adventurer - that has made me one too.

My dad was the smartest. I used to be so proud to tell my friends how he was always being the top in his school. Even when he was looking for Uni – the Uni was the one gace the offer first to my dad. When he was looking for a job – the owner of the company went to his rented place in Jakarta (it was his first house), and offered the job. I'm still so much amazed to that. My dad was the most brilliant – there was no question that he couldn;t answer. From PMP, IPA, IPS, to math, he was mastered at them all even more than my teachers were. Despite of knowing everything, he didn't teach me easy ways. He always put me to the learner seat, not the donkey seat – the one who got told anything without efforts.

Other than knowing anything, my dad could fix everything, and that even made him just the most intelligent man on earth. From the simplest thing to the most complicated ones. From putting back my halved doll from its head (scary banget ga sih gw maennya.. lol), to fixing my mom's sewing machine. He could make any unusable things to be usable again. From old, bad looking things, into new.

My dad was the wisest and the kindest. Even though he's not very much into God and Christianity, must tell you that I'm always stunned by all his teachings to myself and my sis. He's even better than myself who goes to church regularly. One of the thing that always makes me so proud of him, dad has taught me not to cheat – no matter how small is it. Even riding buses without a student card and wish to pay student rate (a very tiny sin =p) - not allowed. And in this world where little cheatings (and lies) have become usual, there's one person I know who still holds the true meaning of honesty - and that's my dad.

My dad plays with me, he even created our own games that no one knew. My dad got excited about my fashion. My dad always introduces me to his friends. My dad teaches me English songs before I sleep instead of reading me stories. My dad translated an English movie from the start till the end when I didn't understand English and couldn't read the translation.

So, imagine such a little girl like me, seeing a person, a dad like him. Mention anything, I mean anything; he knew everything and he could do anything. I heard the story about Soeharto the president, how he was only a poor farmer kid who was so smart that he could made it as a president, straight away I asked my mom & dad, why can't my dad become the president? I was sure that he's more in everything than Soeharto. Hahaha.

I as so proud being his little girl, I would be so pleased if people told me that I looked like him. Even when went around his office building and people recognized me as Bp. Yanto's daughter, that made me so so proud - yeah!!. If you know me, I think my hobbies and charateristics are so much like him.

And as a grown up girl now, and knowing God, I can't really think that he's a God anymore=p. But, I still think that he's perfect - at least for me and in my eyes. He's still the smartest, the wisest and the bravest. But one thing that I see differently now as I grow more mature, I see such a very wise man still. It's a different wise from when I was little, the way he has raised me up since I was little.

My dad always supports me in whatever I do and never gives up on me. You see, sometime I feel ashamed that I'm not as great as him - while I always want to make him proud of me. But no matter what, he always shows that he's never feel ashamed of me, no matter how bad I am. Even though he has always been the greatest in his life – and I'm not, he always shows that I'm the greatest in his eyes. My dad always teach me that it's not the matter of always being able to - but it's the matter of trying and believe in yourself and God. (He do talks about God). As because I love my dad soooooo much, I always try to make my dad proud of me. I always try to be my best so Dad is happy. Sometimes I do fail though, but dad told me, that sometimes it's okay to not being able - we're human anyway. As long as I have put my 101% efforts, then don't regret the whatever results I get. He teaches me to always doing my best even though at the end I'm not always being the best, then I won't regret anything. He said that all things happen for reasons. Sometimes there are people who work hard but they still fail and vice versa, there are people who do things easily and get things easily. There are things that we can't control, so leave it then. What matters are things that we can do but we don't do it.

My dad never steers my life. Of course when I was little I got told things so much. But growing up, he teaches me to be brave enough making my own decisions. He once mentioned to me that he's there not to drive my life, but to guide me. He's always gonna be there for me when I need his ideas and advices, and when I'm in junctions, but I need to learn making my own decision because he's not gonna be on earth forever. You know what's so great about it? We know that parents love their kids so much that you can't really measure their love. But I think my dad's love is the kind of love that not every parent has. He thinks only for my best - not his. Can you imagine the feeling of saying, "If I'm not here on earth anymore". Some parents, they steer their kids life (expecting for the best of course), but don't think long enough what about if they are not on earth anymore? Until this day, my dad is my personal adviser in making lots and lost - most of my life deicisions. I always ask him what to do, how to decide, and which is better from the other ones. And of course, his ideas, opinions and directions are always right at the end. Thank God that I'm sure I won't loose my way as long as my dad is with me.

My dad hardly says no to me. It only started happens when I was a little grown up though - of course. Everything that I asked for, he rarely says no. This way actually makes me hesitate to ask things from him and teaches me to think myself whether I should have it/ buy it.

Even though I don't tell him my personal things, but I always feel that he's so closed to me. There are times when I feel so so despair, strangely my dad can call me just to talk. I feel like I have a very strong bond with him. I'm glad that he's an angel that God sends me everytime I'm so much in gloom.

As I said earlier, I might not stop talking about my dad. I'll never can finish describing him from my point of view. I just want people to know about my dad - if possible, the whole world. Lol. Maybe I'm still like the same little girl who still and always be proud of my dad.

Thank you dad, thank you God.

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Remember I said Stairway to Heaven did make me think a lot? It did. I don't know but this whole thing about unconditional love and death, made me think so much about God. Such a blessing Korean drama =p. You know, this kind of conditional love that the movie shows through the two men, made me shed tears, not because I'm sad and desperate about love.. lol, but somehow I could see for real the kind of love that God has given me thru the actors acts.

First, there are lots of scenes where the girl chose to be alone, leaving the two men, wiping in tears and in a bad shape, yet this two men, kept watching from distance and 'spying' on her, to make sure she's alright. There were many times when she got really sick and couldn't go on, and desperately need help, then he always come up in the right time, ready to assist. Even though it was the girl who left him away, but no matter what, he's there, keeping an eye on her.

Can you really find this kind of love in the real life, except in the movie? No, I don't think so. Everyone's so busy with their own life to keep an eye for your sake! But to tell you the truth, this is the kind of love that I've been receiving from God. From this movie, I can sense that God always keeps his eyes on me, on a distance, to make sure I'm always alright, and when I need it the most, He's always there. I imagine God hides in one of the car down the road when I got out of my office, watching me going home (like in the movie, lol. He does though, not from the car maybe, maybe He is.. I don't know, but I know for sure that He watches me). Though many times I have left him, because of circumstances, or my anger, and felt like I want to get away from anything, yet He's quietly there, still watching n loving me so much.

Thank You God, for always watching me, even though I don't always realize it.

Second, more or less you can get the feel of his unconditional love to the girl (right?!). Hehe. He prefered to be suffering rather than being happy, but loosing her. He preferred to loose his job, wealth and whatever he has, rather than living 'happily' without her. It doesn't matter how circumstances may change to its worst, but whatever it is, he just doesn't want to loose her, and his only life reason is to be always beside her. And, again, I can picture God's love for me. He rather being bitten to death and crucified, rather than loosing me. He just would rather loose everything, except me. His only desire and His only reason is so that I can Him can be together. It's like, there's no reason to live if he is not with her, and amazingly, that's how God feel about us, there's no reason for living, if he doesn't have us.

Thank You God for Your unconditional love that You rather loosing your life, rather than loosing me.

And third, it's about that love, hope and trust in an invisible-contained box. In the movie, the guy gave an empty box to the girl. First time, he said he didn't really know what else that he could give her, as he loved her too much. So, he ‘took' his heart (as the centre of life), and 'put' in that box. I guess, that's how much God loves us. It's not about money, career, health, and good things that He's given us, but on top of that, it's His love, His heart, His everything.
The second thing he ‘put' was trust, and last, he 'put' in was hope. This is the three most important things that he has given her (even tho we can't really see in as real things), for them to 'survive'. Again, I see this are the things that God has given me in an invisible-contained box: love, trust (faith) and hope, to hold on, to able to survive in my relationship with Him. When the guy was exposed in the news that he was going to marry another girl, he remained her, "just trust me". And that's how God always strengthen myself in Him. As far as my eyes can see, and my ears can hear, even though it's so rough, just trust Him. Trust His unconditional love, trust that He has put His heart for me, trust that He's given His heart for me, even He has laid His life for me, so there's no way that He's gonna hurt/ leave me. Trust/ faith sees the invisibles beyond the visibles.

Roma 4: 20
Tetapi terhadap janji Allah ia tidak bimbang karena ketidakpercayaan, malah ia diperkuat dalam imannya...

Still, he did not give up faith in the undertaking of God, but was made strong by faith...

What's hope for? Hope was given to the girl, as their relationship seems to be impossible that time. As if he said to her, don't loose hope in me, in our relationship, in our love. And that's also the way God always remain me, if I really love Him, don't loose hope.. coz love never fails., and His love never fails.

Love, trust and hope. These are the main nerves of love-life. You can't say you do love, but you don't trust and you don't have hope.

Thank you God for the invisible-contained (invisible) box *soalnya gw box kosong pun nya ngga ada =p*, that You have given me. I will learn to love You by holding on tightly to Your unconditional love, trusting You with all of my heart, and always full of hope in You.

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As promised (thou we're not in Heaven yet), this is my thoughts about Stairway to Heaven. Not important, but because this is my blog, then there's nothing more important than what the owner says. Lol. Hahaha. Jadi males nulis panjang2.. so I'll just sum up my thought is basically the same as the two 'men'.. lolz.. I mean MEN *noded*. Yah lah.. I mean from the movie I saw (from a third party's point of view), happiness is not about being free of tears and sadness, but it's about going through it together with your loved ones. Ciyeeeeee.. naive banget rasanya ngomong kaya gini. Jadi inget, a friend actually said the opposite way to me, that happiness is about a tears-free, problem-free life even if we have to loose everything in the world.

Hmm, can we have a mix-match of both? Without loosing anything, happily ever after=). Lol. No no, if life's this good, I think I'm gonna loose that faith and recognition of my God's love. Everything may gone and leave and taken away, but not my acknowledgment about Him and His love. Jadi OOT dikit, jadi inget pertanyaan gw di posting sebelomnya.. what kind of Melissa will I be if I'm having amnesia? Lol. I hope, whatever memory and knowledge that I may loose, I'm not gonna loose the memory and acknowledgment about Jesus. Please leave me with that!

Back to Stairway to Heaven, thhis would be my fav scenes:

Girl: ..kopling masuk gigi 1, rem udah nggak diinjek, gas udah mule2 di gas dikit2.. (ude mo koit)
Him: "I'm sorry that I've broken my promise to you to never leave you that this time I can't go with you"
Writer: It's okay, hopefully one day you'll find me.. hahahaha!!!

I'm glad that tho that eventually he found out about it (and of course that almost perfect man stayed with her till the end). And glad tho she chose her own ways at first, but he could change her thought about love n life. Tho it was a little late for her even she changed her mind to take the operation with the 50% chance of life, but I think her short period of life had no regret, for her, and for him. It was such a priceless short life. That's why even she died at the end, I still think it has a happy ending.

Anyway, it's really not about her sickness, eventually everyone dies, wether it's caused by sickness. So if in parallel, without disease she knew that she's going to die anyway (because of age, maybe?), will she choose to leave him.. hoping that he wouldn't be suffer because of her death? SILLY.

Stairway to Heaven: Love, hope, and trust.. in an invisible contained-box. Watch it if you wanna know what does this mean.

Labels: Cocktails, Love Actually, Moofies

This weekend I spent my precious times slacking with the girls.. watching Stairway to Heaven! N I'm up to the 15th Cd, out of 20. Not too bad, huh? N by 2nite or worst, tomorrow I'll be finished with another Korean series. It's another love story with 80% of it are sad and teary, with amnesia main theme. Lol. I think this amnesia thing (of the female main character) took the biggest part of the story and bragging on and on.. just because she lost her memories (while the guy give-up-lessly try to remain her). The story so far, is not that great (well, at least that's wat I think). The whole plot is about childhood friendship that brought them to the truest love (yeaa, that's wat they think).. n came up to that amnesia part.. long part. Hehehe.

So, what do you think? If this girl has forgotten her forever love (since childhood) because of amnesia, and during her 5 years amnesia she's in love with another guy already (the guy that had to deceive her about her past because he didn't want to loose her). Then the 'original' lover came back and tried to find & wait for her (even tho it was told that she's dead). And when they finally met each other (while she still couldn't remember about him), he believed so hard that it was her. I think though, even her memory was back at the end, but at the present she has loved someone else (and she thought she loves the 'original' guy *jadi kaya rasa bubble tea deh* - while I think it's only a strong memory of her love). Get wat I mean?

I think the most touching part (hixxxxxxx!!!) was such a most perfect guy waited for an unknown time and believed that she'll be back (apa ini namanya gila? LOL). N one more thing was when they met each other and he believed so much that it was her (though she can't remember anything). It was like finally finding her again after forever and they got really close face to face, yet she had no clue about him, and keep wondering to her, "it's me, don't u know me.. are you sure that you're not her?" N she was just plain faced, "u crazy man". Hahahaha.

So, which you think it's the right one to choose? The guy who have loved you for the rest of your life (even tho you're said to be dead), or the guy who would do anything (he's bad enough to deceive her but at the end he's good enough scarifying himself to 'return' her back to make sure she's happy - tho it had messed up everything!). Pusing kaaan? Pesen gw sih (n mungkin arti cerita ini), ati2 aja deh kalo nyebrang jalan, meskipun madly on love jgn lupa sih pengetahuan2 dasar such as liat kanan kiri kalo nyebrang.. biar kaga usah amnesia.. n kaga terjadi kaya gene nee.. hehe. Love is too complicated enough without amnesia!

Labels: Cocktails, Love Actually, Moofies

For clothing me everyday with fashionable clothes, God is good
For feeding me abundantly everyday, sometimes more than 3 times daily, God is so good
For my pairs of eyes, ears, hands and feet, God is so really good
For my cosy home and bed, God surely good
For loves around me, God is good
For providing me with everything that I need, God is good
For my everyday breath, God is good

But even without these
God is still good, when I don't have fashionable clothes
God is still good, even when I don't have food and have to starve and become skinny ^^
God is still good, even if I am "a disabled" in human eyes
God is still good, even if everyone in the world hates me (ngga mungkin tapi ah =p)
God is still so good, even if I am lack of things in life
And even if I die, God is still good!!!!

Thru my ups and lows
Thru my laughters and tears
Thru my happiness and pains
Despite of what I have and what I don't have
Despite of anything, everything that could happen to me...

God is still undeniably good at all times. No any because or for behind it.

For everything I have and I don't, for everything I've been thru, I give You thanks all the time, because it only makes 1 sense to me: You're GOOD.

Labels: Love Actually, My Everything

Got this in my inbox today... hmmmm.

The power of love
It's not measured by how much you love each other
It's measured by how you still can love a person though she/he doesn't love you
It's not measured by how much you care for each other
It's measured by how much you can still care for that person, even she/ he doesn't realize it
It's not measured by how much you can give each other
It's measured by how much you can give even though you're not given

The joy of love
Is not about how enjoyable your relationship is in your happiest life
It's about how much you can still cherish each other and the relationship, where there are no things left to be cherished
It's not about how much laughter and joy you find in the relationship
It's about how much laughter and joy you can find thorough the tears by just having each other

The victory of love
Is not scored by how smooth your relationship is
It's scored by how you both survive when you go through hell
It's not scored by how you both can calm the storm
It's scored by how you both still can walk through the storm

The worth of love in sunny days; expensive
The worth of love in the storm; priceless (for everything else, there's master card *red) hahaha.

The value of love cannot be priced precisely through laughter; it is accurately priced through the tears

Waktu gw baca ini, jadi inget ayat2 di 1 Kor 13 about love. It ends up by saying: 'Love never fails', n it made me think... about love. Hahaha. Nehh, I mean, sometimes we easily blind believe, love never fails. But actually, there are 13 main ingredients (main, it's not optional) to construct a never failing love. Love never fails, only if you have the kind of love with ALL this 13 characteristics written before it sums up with 'LOVE NEVER FAILS'. Hmmmm, dat's whut I think... sok wise bangeett deee gw.. hahaha.

Labels: Love Actually

Batu adalah berat dan pasirpun ada beratnya, tetapi yang lebih berat dari kedua-duanya adalah sakit hati.." (Pro 27:3)

Hohoho, sorry today I'm gonna be a little like a wise old man. Hahaha. I'm gonna ask a question: pernah ngga marah sama orang? Pernah ngga sakit hati sama orang (ya masa ama burung!)? Hmm, perna ga sakiiiiit hati buanget?? Pernah ngga ngerasa suakiiittt huatiii sampe rasanya satu badan lo n tulang2 lo sakit semua? Kalo bisa copot tuh tulang, copot beneran kali! Pernah ngga lo ngerasa sakit hati sampe seluruh darah yang ngalir di dalam badan lo tuh puanaasss n bener2 ngebakar semua yg ada di dalam elo?

... dan dari kerumunan orang banyak, ada cewe mungil yg berusaha terlihat dengan suara toa-nya tereak2.. "Guehhh... guehhhh!!!" N yep, thats me. Hahaha. Gw ngga mo pamer siy kalo gw perna ngerasa sakit hati banget, tapi yg gw mao pamerin kehebatan Tuhan gw.

Hari ini I came to church after beberapa hari semua badan gw dan jiwa gue in pain so much, cmn perkara gw sakit hati. Oh man, I tell u, gada sakit yg lebih sakit daripada penyakit ini. Rasanya lo pengen pergi ke dokter apa kek yang bisa nge-bedah n ngeluarin hati lo biar lo gak bisa ngerasa sakitnya lagi. If u have experience this hatred, u know how does it feel like. If I'm seeing myself, I'm not a person who's easily hate anyone.. but if I once do, I will hate that person sampe gw mati pun I'll hate that person. Hahaha.. u see, welcome to my darkest side!

Puncak semua sakit hati gue tuh kayanya kmrn n tadi malem lah. Sampe mo sinting gueehh, gak bisa tidur, tiap kali bangun, langsung tuh semua pikiran2 jelek n hati gw yang tertusuk2 muncul (padahal dlm keadaan setengah tidur pun pikiran gw bisa jalan dengan jelas!). And bangun pagi pun, that was the first thing on my mind, jadi gw gak bisa molor tidur gara2 pagi2 bangun udah mikirrr n menjadi gila sendiri. Hahaha. Gw bener2 mo gila rasanya being in that awful feeling. And this morning, still I came to church, with one big question I have on my mind that I wanted to ask my pastor: "Okay, everything happens in my life I can accept and I do surrender, but tell me know, how do u get rid of this pain?" Krn buat gw, yg susah bukan nerima kenyataan idup, tapi ngilangin semua rasa sakit hati iniiii.. oooooo.. katakanlah padaku *jadi nyanyi ga jelas*

I didn't ask him apperantly, but God did answer!!!! Gila.. serius niy gila banget rasanya. Unbelivable what God can do, and what u can do in HIM. I was teaching sunday school today, but I wanted s much to hear the Word of God bcoz I felt that I'm in a desperation, sampe gw "nguping" from this little room in the back, so I can listen while I was watching the kids. It was such a hassle, but it was worthed.

The topic was, 7 things you need to do/ have to receive His blessings. And the 6th one was about forgiving. Wohooo, nacaaabb sekale bo! Hahahaha. But as simply as that, the asnwer to my question of how can I get rid of my pain of hating a person is just by simply forgiving that person. Am I the best forgiver? Not at all!!!!! Hahahaha, in fact I'm not a forgiver at all. So, the next question is, how can u forgive people who has wounded you so deeply (caelah!). Jawabannya, u only can do it, with God, in God, and thru God. Simple but complicated, huh? U see, I don't think any human has a perfect heart to love like God does. So, it's no way possible to do this by your own power meskipun elo udah mengerahkan semua sel2 kebaikan yg tersisa dalam diri elo.

Maksudnya forgiving by His help? Maksudnya, it's something that it's only Him can heal. I mean, all of your hatred n pain, just if u willing to. So, I guarantee you, if u have any pain, so deep, or any hatred, and you come to God with willingness to let it go, you will be healed miracoulesly. Gw jamin!!!! Smp skrng aja gw masih ga percaya kalo all that worst feeling has gone at all... in one nite! In fact, in 30 minutes! This is not the time who heals me. And now, all of that bad... very bad thought about the person is not anymore recorded. Wohooo, I'm so free.. lepas, bebas.. malem ini gw bakal tidur senyum2 kali yaa?? N mungkin besok sperti biasa bukan kaga bisa tidur tapi kaga bisa bangunnn!! Hahahaha.

It's true, like it was said, when u start to feel hurt, the devil will use that little seed to make your brain think further.. and further to the worst, and your hatred and pain will just grow soo fast. And it's true, when u hate so much a person who u think has hurted you, somehow u expect by hating them that will "pay him/her back". It's not. Heart aching only hurts you more.. and more.. and more until u can't bare.. not the person who u hate! So, gw ngga mau nyiksa diri gue terus dengan sakit hati gw.. silly gurl!!!!

Wow, amazing banget deh pokoknya live in God. Really. This is only one of so many things I have experienced and learnt. So, buat orang2 di luar sana yg ngerasa udah nyakitin gue.. hahaha, gw mo bilang, you are indeed very very lucky coz I know God.. kalo gak sihh.. *mule ngancem*..hahaha, you are lucky coz you've been forgiven by Melissa!!!! Hahaha. Nggak lah, just thank God. And, I want to thank those, who has hurted me in anyway (or maybe they didn't, it's only me who allow myself to seed that hate).. waaa, thank you so much, because through you all I can experience God's goodness and miracles.. and I believe, God has use it to change my darkest side. Hohohohoho.

So yes, again, I'm reminded, when u live in God, u'll know that nothing happens accidentally. God uses every little and big things happen in your life, for your good purposes. And when you know it, that what makes you strong to stand and face against anything. THINK POSITIVE!! Btw, that is the 7th thing you need to do ^____________^. Have fun in God.

Labels: Love Actually, My Everything

1. Panggilan?
* Papa, Dad

2. Hobby yang sama ama bokap?
* Jalan2 n seeing new places.. ngutek2 barang, nonton... hmppp banyak dey

3. Kenangan pertama ama Bokap??
* Ngga ada kenangan pertama, he's just there as long as I could remember

4. Sifat bokap?
* Calm, wise, friendly, down to earth, simple, sangat2 rendah hati, loves to give very much, smart of course, hard worker

5. Kelebihan bokap loe?
* He's my perfect dad

6. Moto loe yang sama ama bokap?
* Do ur best & u can do it ^_^

7. Sifat loe yang sama ama bokap?
* Hmmm.. I'm just his second version, except of course I'm a female^^

8. Hadiah pertama dari bokap?
* Ngga ingetlah, he's been giving me presents since forever.

9. Hadiah yang paling berkesan dari bokap?
* SEMUAAAAA.. gosh how he loves giving me (&my sys &my mom) presents *huuu, miss u*

10. Lagu kesenengan bokap lo?
* Oldies la, such as BeeGees, Jim Reeves, Beatles, Cliff Richard

11. Jalan jalan terakhir ama bokap?
* Hmm trakhir dating ke Perth.. last May? N yes, he's coming again ^__^

12. Group music yg sama ama bokap?
* Hmm kebanyakan yg dia suka gw pasti suka, tapi kl yg gw suka, blm tentu dia suka siyy.. hahahaha.

13. Masakan terenak bokap??
* Hmmm bakmoi + krupuks + sambel petissss ^______^

14. Minuman terenak bokap??
* aer putih??

15. pesen buat bokap??
* I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you & u'r the BEST like no one else^^

Labels: Love Actually